i like the concept of soulmates—not a “you’re destined to meet me, and love me” kind of soulmate, but a “i’d pick you, every time.” kind of soulmate. a “no matter what happens, and what has happened, i want to go through it with you.” kind of soulmate. a “i love you by choice, and you’re a blessing, and i’m going to continue thinking about you this way not because i have to but because i want to.” kind of soulmate. a “you help me rest easy when everything is difficult” kind of soulmate. a “in every possible outcome, i want you there, to share it with me.” kind of soulmate.
Am I the bird?
Am I the cage?
Am I both?
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Surreal photography by KangHee Kim (b.1991)

love:
Goodbye First Love, 2011 dir. Mia Hansen-Love
am I actually ok or am I just numb
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pain.
I haven’t been on here in a while
a lot has happened lately.
I haven’t really been able to process.
a lot has happened lately.
I haven’t really been able to cope.
a lot has happened lately.
I haven’t been able to articulate.
a lot has happened lately.
I haven’t been able to let myself feel.
a lot has happened lately.
I haven’t been able to communicate.
a rape happened.
that quote from love, simon “these last few years, it’s almost like i can feel you holding your breath. you can exhale now, simon.” hit me so hard. it’s so rare to find a line that so perfectly describes what it’s like being closeted and how scared and isolated you feel. i can’t even put into words how important this movie is to me and i’m so glad the lgbt community is finally getting the kind of good representation we’ve always deserved.


